I really enjoy Saturday mornings when I get to sit with the morning sun softly lighting up my living room, and the time to talk with the Lord in a more relaxed atmosphere than the prior days of the week. I’ve certainly walked through periods of time when I felt dry, and sometimes when I didn’t even feel like talking to the Lord. Fortunately they were not long periods of time, and the occasional times when I don’t feel close to the Lord – when God seems silent, they cause me to question. I question what’s wrong, or maybe sometimes I don’t really pay attention to the silence because I get so caught up in my daily routine.
This morning I asked God to give me a verse – something to live by. I sat silent for a few seconds, and a reference came to my mind – Psalm 95:6. I flipped through the pages until my eyes landed on it.
“O come, let us worship and bow down: let us kneel before the Lord our maker.”
Some attributes about the Lord are so easily taken for granted. His omniscience, omnipotence, and that He cares for us so deeply…He really doesn’t care where we are, whether our hair and makeup is done, or the way we put our words together when we pray. Sometimes we may think they don’t make sense, and that we’re not really expressing ourselves the way we really feel, and they wouldn’t make sense to anyone else, either. But He knows just what we are thinking. “For man looketh on the outward appearance, but the LORD looketh on the heart” (1 Samuel 16:7b), and “Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered” (Romans 8:26). I’ve told the Lord sometimes I wish I could think of magical words to really get across what I’m trying to say. That makes a lot of sense, right? Obviously, I didn’t mean it in a disrespectful way, but I feel like I’m not going to get what I’m asking for if I don’t phrase it correctly. How silly!
I read further in the psalm, and I noticed in verse 10 it says, “Forty years long was I grieved with this generation, and said, ‘It is a people that do err in their heart, and they have not known my ways.” Now, in view of His eternal and infinite nature, it seems that 40 years is no span of time in the scheme of it all. But 40 years without the fellowship of His people grieved Him! It was enough for Him to mention – if that doesn’t show His love for us…He so longs for our fellowship. He wants us to pour out our hearts to Him. He doesn’t care that He already knows what our needs are, He wants us to tell Him!! Here I see that God is not above the companionship of His creation. He created the longing for acceptance and community, because He longs for that with us.
I regretfully find myself starting out many of my prayers with, “God, please help me…” – which in essence are good petitions, but I forget to thank Him for the great and might things He has already done in my life! Am I that bent toward selfishness? I don’t want to be, but I think I am many times.
May I learn to “worship and bow down…” to “kneel before the Lord our maker” on a consistent, daily basis. It will change my relationship with Him AND with others.