I know that the personal battle of fear is not individual to me.
Yet, because I have struggled with it for as long as I can remember, it’s as if that conflict is something I have ownership in. I tend to allow it because it has become a part of who I am.
But wait – what do we really mean when we say, “This is who I am”? Do we even realize the depth of what that is, what it means, and what the repercussions are? There are so many labels that we put on ourselves because (and I would daresay I am not the only one) – we’re not comfortable when we are faced with a question we don’t know the answer to. My husband pointed out to me fairly recently that if I don’t know the answer to a question he asks, it’s okay. Don’t make up an answer. Just say, I don’t know. And I found freedom in that realization. And I’ve put it into practice.
On a much deeper level, when I relinquish that habit of scrambling for an answer to a problem I don’t have the capacity to resolve, I find freedom in the knowledge I DO have – that is, Jesus Christ has the answer. He IS the answer. I don’t have to continue the struggle of fear because He is Love, and Love casts out Fear.
There was a short period of time when I was younger, when I had made a mistake and felt so guilty, so condemned, and so self-conscious. My best friend at the time found out and was absolutely devastated – furious. It was years before our relationship became semi back-to-normal. During that time I learned a lot about confiding in my Father by praying consistently, and waiting to hear His voice. I will never forget one day when I was driving and I told the Lord about how I was struggling with my friend and I wanted SO badly to have our relationship back to where it was, and I worried so much about her perception of me. At a stoplight, I heard God’s loving but firm voice whisper to me: “You don’t have to worry about what I think about you, so why are you worried about what she thinks about you?” Eureka! I still think about that statement when I feel insecure about my relationship with her. I hope one day we will be as close as we were before, but in any case, I don’t have to worry about what my Father thinks of me!
When Jesus came into Caesarea Philippi with His disciples, He asked them, “Whom do men say that I the Son of Man am?” They answered Him saying that some thought He was John the Baptist, Elijah, Jeremiah, or one of the prophets. And then the kicker came:
“But Whom say YE that I am?”
And Simon Peter answered, “Thou art the Christ, the Son of the living God.”
If we simply believe that, then we can believe everything that HE says about US. And we don’t have to have the answers. We can accept without reservation that “There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit”; that “there is no fear in Love”; and, “If God be for us, who can be against us?”
Thank God, THAT answer is so easy 🙂
Share your thoughts and testimonies of how God has given you peace when you felt afraid!